Revelation....

I want to be 11 stone 7 for my wedding (it is the target weight I have set myself, although ww suggests I should be 11st 1) thats 67 lbs to lose by then...I actually need to lose the weight of a large dog or wolf !!!! Interesting as I lost the equivalent of a small dog last week lol.

I have 66 weigh ins until my wedding date so a lb a week....doesn't sound TOOO bad.....will try. This is my incentive and motivation :)

Hahaha I could not resist!!!!!

Every day brings its own challenge.......

Yay its saturday!!!!!

I am very tired today but I have loads to do :(.

There are lessons to be learnt tho, yesterday despite staying within my points I ate rubbish (hence feeling yuk today !!!! I don't think I ate any real food yesterday just convenience snacks and a handful of strawberries and grapes!!! I will not be doing that again, I have a snack hangover.

This morning I have to be a domestic goddess and reclaim my house for the arrival of Mr S.I also need to go shopping and buy some food as my fridge is bare (apart from two half bottles of wine and a pack of half fat butter!!)

This afternoon I am going to hit the books and do more of my essay ...this is beginning to feel like walking up mount everest carrying the entirity of my ww class....nigh on impossible !!!

Then Mr S arrives :). We are going to go and see HP the last one......CINEMA arrrgghhhh scary expensive place with lots of lovely temptations such as ice cream, popcorn, chocolate, pick and mix sweets...the list is endless. What to do ??? Think I may give Mr S the money for my ticket and leave my wallet at home to avoid the temptation of the snack bar.

How does anyone else survive the cinema?? I may have to put a fat bride pic in my wallet to help me avoid temptation my old fat pic used to work.

New experiences and walking tall......

Well yesterday went well pointing wise.

I had a new experience with Sushi ( not the raw fish kind, the vegetable and tuna kind lol). I really liked it but I was surprised how many points it was when I finally got around to pointing it. Mind you I also was pleasanty surprised how full I was afterwards. My work colleagues and I talked about going to a sushi bar in Leeds to try sushi for real (rather than the Tescos version we had consumed) the weird thing is, normally I would have anxiety butterflies with any talk of eating out, but yesterday I just felt calm and composed and thought, yeah sushi isn't bad as an eating out choice.

I also earnt 6 activity points yesterday, just from walking. Within my day I walked to the local shop and back, where I would normally have used my car. The shop is of the distance where it is convenient to use the car but likewise it is walkable if you have the time and can be bothered. I am going to try and keep up this type of 'hidden exercise'.

I am also keeping up with listening to my weight loss CD, (welll last night I only listened to one half of it before dropping off) not sure it is working as I am still snacking on naughty stuff (pointed tho) at work, but on the other hand, walked around supermarket last and put no naughties in my basket...so maybe it is....watch this space.

I am not particularly liking this muggy weather ( although it is making me drink proper amounts of water). I am really tired all the time, and having to push myself to do anything, but what I am doing is pushing myself to incorporate at least 1 activity point a day. I am also doing my 5 day week this week at work...shock to the system ( I work a 9 day fortnight and in term time I only work 4 long days a week. ). Anyway must get off to work......

Damage limitation......NOT required

Last night I had a great night with my friend. We talked a lot and ate.....well we ate well, but not too badly. It was a really muggy night so had the perfect excuse to have a prawn salad which was minimal points..asked for no coleslaw and sauce on side so most of the salad was 0 point veg....it was HUGE. My friend had a seafood platter starter....she announces (so I can have a pudding). Initially I was thinking, oo maybe I should have a starter not a main, but then I realised hers included bread whereas mine it was all about the salad lol. I avoided looking through the menu, having see the ladies next to us have the salad, I was satisfied in my choice.

So we chatted and then the topic of PUDDING came up...the list was endless and exciting.....I was confused, I wanted all of it!!!! I looked for a saviour, maybe a fruit salad hiding amonst the gooey goodness of oreo explosion, dime dar crunch, sticky toffee pudding etc. But NO nothing with fruit......arrrggghhh. Ice cream, a plain ice cream maybe .....NO it was allice cream trifle, knickerbocker glory....I looked to my right as the waitress anounces here is you strawberry ice cream...2 scoops.....a ginorous glass with ice cream, cream, cherries, sauces nuts arrived at the table. No if I was looking for salvation ice cream wasn't it :(...so I opted for what I liked the look of.

Banoffee brandy snap basket......nom nom nom!!!!

Got home and immediately pointed it....yes I have used a few of my weeklies, bit not too many and a quick blast of zumba will soon remedy that.

I think today I will be mainly eating fruit and veg lol.

Week 2 :)

Day 1 week 2. After that great loss yesterday I am determined to carry on losing. This week I am going to try and

• do Zumba 5 days out of 7,


• stay within my daily points


• ensure that every day I am earning at least 1 activity point on my ww pedometer

This is following the same pattern as last week. I have a busy week planned with essays to complete, and wedding venues to visit and my lovely fiance coming over at the weekend, I am going to plan to avoid disaster.

Talking of planning and avoiding I am meeting one of my friends tonight that has never had a problem with her weight. We are meeting for a meal. The pub I know has options which are healthy, but they also have 'yorkshire chips' which seduce you with their look and smell and the knowledge of how bad they are for you. I am determined to avoid them, but I know my friend has already text me to say 'you won't just be having salad will you?' I think to put her off the scent I may have a fishy option, that way I am being healthy but it does not scream diet!!

What do you do when you go out with friends to eat? Do you have well meaning friends that say 'oh its just one night it won't do you any harm'? I used to say my social life gangs up on me, but now I realise that I used to let it. I have friends who sabotage my weight loss journey without intending to, but I just need to play the game more wisely.

I have listened to my weightloss hypnososis CD two nights running now ( I say listened in the loosest way, having fallen asleep on both occassions, which the very dull Australian hypnotist assures me is fine.) He suggests I listen 10 days straight, which I am going to try to do (not sure what OH will think at the weekend but hey ho). Last night my sleep was amazing, and I feel groggy this morning, you know in the way you do when you have had a really good deep sleep. So if nothing else its helping me combat this awful hot muggy weather!!

weigh in !!!!!!

I have lost the equivalent of a small dog today 2.5lbs. I have half a stone to lose until I reach my 10% I am very pleased with that as a result....I just need to keep it up. THis means regular zumba, monitoring eating and continuing with the weight loss CD.

I have 7 weeks until my uni term starts again ( my final year of my Masters) I am going to aim to have lost another half stone by then. This will mean I am at 10% and adhering to my plan to lose an average of a lb a week until my wedding day :)

Please help me on my journey, all comments gratefully received.

Really enjoying move the 5 pebbles from my weight loss jar :)