OMG its weigh in tomorrow!!!!!

So tomorrow is weigh in night....

On reflection my week has been a mixture of highs and lows so I have absolutely no idea what the scales may say. But I will take it head on whatever the outcome.

I have managed to increase my exercise, I have walked on 4 days out of the 7. I have not managed to do my exercise DVD or go to the gym as I have had this flu-bug thing.

My eating has been better and I have managed to stick to my three meals a day, and I have increased the amount of vegetables and fruit I have had so all is good I guess.

Todays exercise has consisted of me being a domestic goddess.....

I have bottomed my kitchen.

I have had every cupboard out and cleaned. I have binned the stuff that was out of date, despite toying with the idea that a decent bout of food poisoning may actually improve my weight loss.

I have got rid of all the kitchenware that I don't use so that I can see and arrange the kitchenware that I actually do use. My kitchen now looks like somewhere I might like to cook...pity the rest of y house doesn't look as good...it will do by Saturday...it has to I am having friends around.

So how many bonus points do I get for slaving away in my kitchen on the hottest day of the year so far for about 4 hours????? I am off to check out on my tracker.....

Keep everything crossed for me tomorrow, I promise not to stand on one leg in an attempt to weigh less. :o)

First weekend back on the wagon

Well its not a true test as I have been poorly. :o(

Maybe, if I look on the positive side, its the reaction my body is having to all the toxins coming out, what with me having healthy food and drinking lots of water. On the negative side it could just be a virus that everyone else is having at work, or on the real downer it could be my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome playing up......mmmmm, nope I don't think I will go into that one today, maybe when my joints hurt a little less.

So this weekend I slept through Saturday, and on Sunday my sister came over with her friend. We met at the Stork cafe (one of my favourite eateries). Now my sister and I both love our food, maybe different types of food, but our love of food is shared. She is tackling things the rosemary way whereas me I follow ww, however we both frequently fall off the wagon and bemoan our fat genes.

Well my sis and I enjoy walking and talking but walking always involves a tearoom and a bit of cake.....well not this morning. This morning I had a ploughmans...OK so a mini pork pie is not good....but the salad and stuff was great :o).

This evening I managed to stay off the nibbles by typing a letter to Keith, I must remember to post it in the morning...I can't believe it will take over 6 days to get to him :o(.

He seems so far away....but we have booked lots of weekends away. Can't wait to have him home. Mind you I think he may not help the weight loss....how do people manage eating out and dieting......

walking back to fitness

Just a quick post....

well this afternoon I managed to get a walk in.

i went to my local park, I had forgotten how beautiful it was (see pictures)

the weather stayed dry and I was undisturbed apart from a few squirrels and a pigeon I saw no-one until I got to the cafe for a drink of water

I have manageged to stay on track today, and I have spent a lovely evening with my friends on the 5+ boards.

Thats 3 days and stayed on track :o) It can be done

Day 2

Day 2 and I have not succombed.

I have found 2 more triggers for myself.......

THE CANTEEN AT WORK

Last night I was so proud of myself I looked what I had in the cupboard and thought about what I was going to have for my lunch at work. I planned what I was going to take for snacks realising that I would not be able to sit for a day in front of my computer without the nibblies.

I got to work having eaten my peanut bar for breakfast, went about my business of the day my nibbly box full of grapes and strawberries by my side and then.......my boss calls me......'do I want lunch'.....

The NHS lets us take our own food to the canteen but I find myself thinking mmmm would it be rude to take my own salad and sit whilst my friend guiltily ate chips........was that a real thought or an excuse???

Well I find myself in the queue, talking to my boss who is eyeing up the quiche and chips, they smell lovely......and then I see it ...my saving grace.....the pasta is a safer option and I can have salad too. My quorn and salad would have been less but pasta and salad is a safe second.

I sit and eat and enjoy my friends company....phew......

and then

THE SUPERMARKET

I was driving home and realised I did not have anything to have with my salad so I think I will pop into Sainsbury's and pick up some fish...mmmmm

As I walk to Sainsburys from my car...a space of 200 yards...and I am thinking of strawberry tarts, chocolate, ready meals........mmmmmmm

Once inside I get a grip wandering up and down the aisles, I look at the ready meals, but force myself to look at the quorn ones noting the fat content, putting only those below 4% in my basket. I buy nice fruit......but then find myself eyeing up the strawberry tarts..........I run away but find myself in the ice cream aisle....they are in my basket before I notice......

I pay for my goods the mars ice creams nestled in my bags.....mmmmmm one after tea will be ok

I get in from shopping and one is in my mouth as I get in the door.......

THE SOLUTION????

As soon as I get in ....the computer is on and I check my points.....even with the errant mars bar I have enough points for the day...as long as i have salad and prawns......I can live with that....but previously I would have just eaten my tea and checked my points afterwards....and spent the evening bemoaning the fact I had over done it. Then I would probably have eaten myself silly as I would have thought there is no point carrying on today..I will start tomorrow......

So two days within my points....Its just the start but it feels good so far.............

ITS TIME FOR A NEW START

Today is the start of therest of my life.....

I have been playing at this dietting lark for as long as I can remember, so why should now be any different????

I have a cunning plan.....but before I tell you about that I guess I should let you in on what has got me to this point. I'll try for the condensed version.....

Its been a funny old year.... May 2008 I thought I had my life-plan sorted, I was striving towards what I thought was the most important thing in life, I was blinkered and kept working away at what I now know was a fantasy never to come to fruition well not that way anyway. I had a good job, a house and was in a long term relationship, by June 2008 I was single, uncertain about my house and struggling with my job.......I felt briefly like my world had crumbled, but then it felt like a weight had been lifted, like the scales had been removed from my eyes as it were.......

By July I was salvaging my life....sounds a little dramatic I know, but looking back thats exactly what I was doing. Sifting through what was left and what was me......I was actually looking for me. What the hell was important, everything I had spent the last few years building was no longer there....but I was finding I was smiling a lot again, I was laughing and living up to my nickname of giggles, I was seeing my friends and I was making decisions about my future again.

My friends and family were great, if constantly looking for the emotional breakdown we all felt should surely be on the horizon, but it never came. i had fun I met new people, I was enjoying my new lease of life.

Fast forward early 2009, I was trying desperatley to lose weight it seemed something I could actually take control of. I was back on the ww boards, enjoying the banter and the friendship and actually losing a bit of weight. And then I was taken by complete surprise.......whilst chatting with people on the boards something or rather someone caught my attention. Someone was talking to me, leaving me notes of encoragement, his comments were genuine and warm, they made me laugh but also the honesty within them made me think about what I was doing, what I wanted......

For the ww readers amonst you you have seen the romance unfold, that casino night on the boards the annoyingly nauseating FAO comments scattered throughout the 5+ boards and the meeting in Lincoln :o).....and 13 weeks later we are still very much together.

And here we find ourselves in June 2009...so whats changed...I am the same weight I was in May 2008, but yesterday as I stepped on the scales and noted the 1lb weight gain I did not lie to myself about not knowing where that 1lb had come from. I registered instead I had done no exercise except lifting a diet coke can to my lips, I had eaten my weight in chocolate consoling myself after hard days at work and trying to overcome the frustration at not being able to contact my American boy, and I remembered burning my low point curry and replacing it with a take away for ease.

It was a revelation..... this week I have started by acknowledging what went wrong last week so I have a fighting chance this week.......

So the plan, meetings, honesty, esource and this blog.........today is the start of the rest of my life!!!

Although these pics hold lovely memories of a glorious weekend away they can't hide the fact that I am a big lass. In my minds eye I do not look like this but I have to face teh fact this is how the world sees me. I love these pictures but can't wait until I have pictures that make me proud as well as happy :o)